Thursday, August 23, 2007; 9:42 PM

everything was falling apart and it still pretty much is.
but,
something wonderful happened on wed.
my class surprised me with a birthday cake.
i mean, that was just fcuking sweet.
and it was pouring on wed morning n sarah brought the cake in the rain.
i mean, i was really touched.
i kinda barely know my class like WELLLL. and yet the thought was just too great.
i was really shocked.
and the whole class singing happy birthday to me. ive not had that in yrs.
i was blushing. i was red untill saray asked me to stop blusing.HAHA.
chetna out cream on my face. walaooooooooooooo. old sch.haha.
another sweet gesture, jane was unaware of my birthday, she gave me lemon puffs, the whole big packet as my birthday present. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i was even more touched. it clearly shows its the thought and not the gift.


honestly, i can forget my birthday this year. i can. it is not striking me this year. as impossible as it sounds, i can. i never thought that i could forget my own birthday, but i can. for this year, definately.

i woke up in a startle when you appeared in my dream,
the funny part, it was still depicting the picture i try to portray to you of me.
and i felt crushed in the dream, as real as in reality.



Monday, August 20, 2007; 12:06 AM

i just needed that cry.



Wednesday, August 15, 2007; 11:50 PM

before this stupid day ends, i wanna say how much i HATE AUGUST 15.
I HATE IT SO MUCH.
fcuk this day every year. RAH.
it's like a curse. it always suck for -peep- knows what reason.
arghhhhh.



Monday, August 13, 2007; 9:34 PM

just to let you know that the phone works 2 ways.
my gosh. it pains me so badly.
fcuk. fcuk. fcuk. fcuk.
i cant express my pain anymore.
so many things hurt me these days.
so many.
and you know what ive really come to hate.
people who take things for granted.
for crying out loud, look at what you've got.
fcuking hell. how i wish you would fcuking open your eyes.
im not ok, dont you get it.
im tired of trying to reach out to you in all my small ways.
im tired. im so tired.
i rather drown than continue threading the deep seas.
i reach out for your touch and you turn away.
i mean, fcuk.
you have people all around you.
and all i ask of you, is to just be there for me.
is that so hard.
im starting to not believe in people's words anymore.
you say, 'i promise. i promise'
fcuking hell. you've never kept your promiseS.
yes, i use capital for S.
and fcuk that saying of promises are meant to be broken.
i think whoever came out with that statement is low living, ego centric, self denial fcuked up person.
i hate your empty words. i hate it so much.you always fill me up with so much hope and than you throw me down.
damn it.
stop playing me.
if you only knew the pain you are causing me.
the pain which i have so dearly endured for such a long time now.

but i need pills to sleep at night.
i need lies to make it thru the day.

just to be at the corner of your heart.



Saturday, August 11, 2007; 11:35 PM
















Monday, August 06, 2007; 12:44 AM

chelsea lost over penalties.
n lamps shot was saved.
omg.
i just froze.
heart pain.
n it has begun.
the quarelling with mr ronaldo has resumed.haha.
im still arguing with him now.
BAHHHHH.
lampsss...why?what happened?
heart pain.
< 3



Sunday, August 05, 2007; 7:59 PM

i nearly died yest.
HAH.
the funny part, it was at siglap.
my love.haha.

went for ndp yest.will post photos soon.
no freaking fireworks.ppl left when the announcement was made that there will be no fireworks.haha.

oooooo, the army stuffy were awesome.haha.

class was fun today.photos soon as well.
aunt jen's place after that. she cooked laksa.THE BEST.
nigel, gabby n ria are such darlings.

so many things happening today.
1.F1...COME ON HAMILTON!
2.CHELSEA vs MANU...COME ON CHELSEA...LAMPARD!!!!WOO HOO HOOOOOO.
3.UGLY BETTY...HAHA.

haha.my assisngment is staring at me.HAHA.philosophiesssssssss.bahhhh.

my munchkin was here on friii.haha.i was dead tired but had lots of fun with him.

<3



Friday, August 03, 2007; 12:04 AM

my song before the whole fking world knew bout it.BAH.enjoyyyyy. dad came home n he broke down in front of me just like that.
i was too shocked to say/do anything.
i cant take it when my dad breaks down.he hardly ever breaks down.
i just heard him out.
help me.
sometimes i wanna do so much, but i dnt know where to start.
mon-thurs--->sch.
thurs, i come home n i start my chores.
like today, i got home.n started my chores.first load in the washer n those by hand.
took down the dry clothing n put it aside.
sorted out the hangers.
mopped the house.
folded clothes.
2nd load in the washer.remaining clothing by hand.
cleaned the kitchen.my friend, the bleah.
ironedddd some of the clothes.
last load in the washer now.
ive got so much reading to do for sch.
on cognitive development now.
rani jsut gave out ALOT of readings when we ended class.
ive not even touched her previous reading on physical aspects cuz i was concentrating on effective principles and practices.gotta write an essay on my philosophy by wed!!!!
started a new module.i like my lecturer, she's irish.she's nice.haha.
how do i sum up my life?
ooh...chetna thought i am married.joke of the day. 0.0