Tuesday, July 31, 2007; 9:59 PM

no morning lecture tmr.=D.
im tired. real tired.finished up my assignment yest which is dued tmr.
i read thru it before lectures today n i spotted spelling mistakes.haha.i was up to weeee hrs completing it.while taking my break for brothers & sisters of course.HAH.
daveeee..hot.haha.
im just staring at my text now...emerging development. rani HIGHLY advised that we start reading up on the physical aspects before we begin part 2 of development.yikes!thats why im trying to make it a point to start reading today.HAHA.come on sammmmmm.HAHA.
i finally realised this.
when im angry with you, i want to be like you.
you dont care and dont seem to wanna care.
i tell myself not to care about you,
that i cant give a damn.
but i cant.
that's just not me.
i kinda find it like a joke cuz after these yrs, i finally realise this.
i cant be like you who doesnt seem care.
i cant be like you who doesnt have the time to care.
i just canttt. ive tried so many times, and ive failed every single time.
and when i do so, i get so mad.
i get mad with you.
i get mad with myself.
and i get mad with everything around me.
finally, when i came to realise that its just not me not to care, i feel better.
i feel so much better.
what about you,
what about me,
what about us.



Saturday, July 28, 2007; 6:08 PM

1 hr and 28 mins more to win a date with ted hamilton.
i fking love that show.
i dnt care what u think, i love that show so so so much.
wait for jon to lend me the dvd till it came out on tv.haha.
misss him so much.haha.soon to become ns boy.HAHA.
ive been doing assignments the whole dayyyyyy.
reading after reading...question after question...answer after answer.
im so tireddddd.haha.
im so happy cause of the showwww..WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
haha.
<3
1 hr and 17mins more.............................



Thursday, July 26, 2007; 8:16 PM

i dnt know what hit my parents but they seem to be hit/realy concerned that im by myself in the manner of i go to sch, i come back to an empty house syndrome.i dnt know why now?cuz after emmy's birth, dad goes over everyday after work. so im basically by myself.plus,mum is there 5 days a wk.i only see her on fri night,sat,sun.thats it...so it's basically just me at home.thats it.but from yest,dad makes it a point to come home straight from work one day a wk.we had a good talk yest n it seems that both him n mum are concerned...VERY CONCERNED.i dnt know y.as we were talking, my eyes started welling up cuz i miss my mummy...ALOT.i mean, after she retired, she was supposed to be home n all.like, she wld have more time.plus we wld have more tome together cuz all thru my sch life, she was working so we didnt have good quality time for one another.and as i got older, my realationship with her got closer n closer.ive not shown nor have i realised that i missed her so much.my tears were about to roll down my cheeks when the doorbell rang.fcuk,writing this now is hard.
emmy's coming tmr.i miss him like hell.i fcuking miss him.mummy's coming home.yay yay.mandy is coming over as well.im cooking tmr.=D.
<3
1 month to my birthday.HAH.no feelings...AT ALL.
will we have our annual big fight dar?



Monday, July 23, 2007; 7:30 PM

im stressed.
and it's the first day.haha.
i kinda realised that its been 9 months since i picked up my books.
made friends.haha.how pri sch does that sound.3 girls n a guy.haha.
1989,1988,1987,1986.
that's the four of us.haha.
im having this real bad headache now.
and i gotta do my readings for effective principles and practices.
bought my module textbooks.$125. -.-
child development is like,here we go again.theoritical stuff.and it's only part 1.
ooooooooo.i woke up today to this huge bruise on my jaw.
it's like someone bashed me up.
yest,marco it my jaw accidentaly.fcuk.used concealer to cover it.
ppl would think that i got into a fight.
pills arent helping me.
i need 'that 70s show nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww



Sunday, July 22, 2007; 9:07 PM

sch starting tomorrow.
kinda nervous.HAHA.dnt know why.
mixed feelings.time for me to turn into a nerd once again.haha.last time i was always either at the library,my face was stuck to a book,surfing the net for ideas or writting essays.HAHA.
NERD.
looking back, OMG.is that me?haha.
things have drastically changed with me from sec sch.
im not who i used to be.
plus the working experience now, im diff.haha.which i like actually.
class was fab today.haha.
so proud of them.
marco tried to tackle me.funny fella.such a darling.
my sis asked me what i wanted to do for my 21st bday.i just stared blanky at her.
i was like WHAT.
haha.i laughed n told her, i didne even turn 19 n u r planning my 21st.
she was like 'yah what,must plan'.haha.she ah.
i got my first birthday present.haha.something i have been eyeing.yay.weeeeee.
i still love you, no matter what.
period.



Friday, July 20, 2007; 8:46 AM

swollen eyes.
fcuk.
not a good day.
orientation today. it's like in 2 hrs.
just the thought of it is making me....sigh.
what a night yest.
just tears balls.
fcuk.
damn eyes.
wish me luck.
-.-



Tuesday, July 17, 2007; 12:06 AM

babysitting tmr.haha.that seems to be my life now.n it wil lbe for the rest of my life.haha.
-playing the third person, influenced by GA-
sam saw you after a long time.
sam stepped back and thought for awhile.
sam still knows why she had a crush on you.
sam knows that people and sam herself normally think back on people they have liked in the early years and cringe at the thought of it.
but sam still knows, till this day why sam liked you THAT much.
sam knowssss.
HAHA.that was weird.playing the third person is irritating but funny n addictive.
saw sherwyn,uncle howard n mrs tan after such a long time yest.i have to tip toe to hug sherwyn.haha.mum has to look way up at him to speak to him.HAHA.cant believe but actual facts we grew up together since pri 1 in cat class.nonsense days.haha.
you are looking better and better.



Thursday, July 12, 2007; 7:57 AM

im up.yawns.
going to babysit.
yawns.
tireddddd.
i have to change my sleeping pattern.
im lying on my bed waiting for dad's call.
i really miss my mum.she came back yest n we talked n talked n talked.haha.
she's so funny.haha.i love her.
i misssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss her.
<3



Monday, July 09, 2007; 7:23 PM

federer won.boo hoo hoo.
sigh.
its ok.it was a fantastic finals.
well done nadal!=D
reportedly lampard cheated AGAIN, this time with this hot brunette in vegas.
i still want to marry him.HAHA.
ive got to get well.running nose still.
suppose to meet butt n all for sinner today but feeling under the weather.
watched step up earlier today, my gosh, i love the show.cant believe skinny died just like that.i really love the show.
That '70s show in half an hr.WEEEEE.cant wait.
shades + you = HOT!



Sunday, July 08, 2007; 11:03 PM

hello.
feeling really down now.
just witnessed a big fight and i just turned my head away.
i cldnt say anything cuz i think it wld make it worst.
i wanted to stop it but i just cldnt thinking that i wld make it worst.
just turned my head n my tears just fell.
watching wimbledon finals now.
nadal, make my day n win pls.
damn it.
i have no outlet.
i kinda of dnt know what to do.
help.
pls.
<3



Saturday, July 07, 2007; 6:35 PM


im hurt my 2 little toes badly.

on my left, i knocked it against my bed n it bled.cldnt stop bleeding for some time.iced it down n its still swollen.n its numb till now.n this happened 2 days ago.


on my right, i was wondering why i was hurting so much.showed dad n he said its a water cut.like under my lil toe, the skin is sliced.PAIN!i cant wiggle it.cant walk properly.help!


changed me air con today n had mio installed.my net is indeed faster.


im so stuck to wimbledon.haha.it always happen to me every yr.i wanna goooooo.rafael nadal come on!haha.


070707.ppl every hitching today.haha.the most commom reason choose this date besides it being auspicious is that neither party will forget their anni.haha.imagine is either party forgets.haha.imagine the facts of that arguement.haha.


live earth today.weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.i pledge that thingi online.im doing my part.come on, we all can do out part.haha.haha.


emmanuel stayed over n thurs.i miss him already.like jon told me, alot of ppl will think that im a unwed mum cuz when u open my wallet, u see emmauel's pic.haha.bite me!haha.


im hungryyyyyyyyyyyy.durian for dessert.


nose is running n throat is hurting me lil.but its durian!haha.


a month ago i was in shanghai.damnnn.time passes so fast.i kinda miss being away.sigh.


seeing the lil ones tmr finallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.haha.after a month+?miss them LOTS.


Live Earth: The Concerts For A Climate In Crisis

Spread the message.

Do your part.

Save the cheerleader, save the world. (HAHA)

<3



Tuesday, July 03, 2007; 11:16 PM

Butt's creation

EMMANUEL EPHRAIM TAN JIAN AN
What a wonderful Baptism.
My reading went well.WEEE.haha.
Emmanuel was fab.haha.I thoroughly enjoyed myself and so did everyone else.
Off to York for the rest of the celebrations.so nice to have all our friends and family members around.
Love was in the air.haha.

Thanks butt for the print out.I love it so much.
He designed himself for the confi peepz.
He just became a Godpa to a confirmant.haha.
yay.We both are starting a new journey.

During the vows,I felt the impact of becoming a Godma.
The responsibility is great.
As Father was continuing the vows, i felt even more and more responsible.

I look at my Godparents who were there and I really look up to them as role models.haha.

I love Emmanuel.



Sunday, July 01, 2007; 1:05 AM

i shopped.hahaha.is there such a word as "shopped"?HAHA.
bought a river island top and 2 NUM flip flops.yes,my first of NUM stuff and actually my first river island item as well.haha.bought 2 cds as well.(k sam,enough shopping)
yay.jon liked my new bag,mng shades n wallet.weeee.

we were supposed to meet at 3.he asked for 3.30 den i asked for 4.HAHA.
we ended up meeeting at 4.20.haha.joke.

he shopped till his wallet went dry.madness i tell u.haha.but alot of fun.
peninsula.
river island.
cafe cartel.
topman/topshop.
pull and bear.
cathay cine(BLOODY HELL,ALL SOLD OUT FOR TRANSFORMERS.ARGHHHHH.I WAS SO MAD.='()
Queens couture
NUM
HMV
Spinelli

waited forever to call for a cab.haha.the joke was the cab we called for was in front of us n we didnt know till the driver called.cuz it turned out to be those maxi cab which we werent expecting.haha.so fun.haha.

the crowd was horrible.we've listed the top 2 reasons why it was so crowded.
1.national stadium party
2.ndp rehearsal
3.last day before gst hike.
HAHA.
it was so horrible.jon was gonna whack the next person that hit him.haha.

weee.finally get to use my new dress tmr.haha.
im nervous.how!haha.oh Lord, please help me.haha.

what a huge celebration it will be tomorrow. Amen! =D.
i claim all will go well tmr.=D.AMEN!

<3