i went to work yest with a heavy heart. throughout the whole journey to work, i hated myself. i just felt that i could not leave my parents alone today to deal with what was going on. when i reach my office builfing lift, i was feeling worst. till now, i can't explain that feeling i felt. i went to the office, i sat in front of my comp and just stoned for 10 secs before i decided to sms my supervisor to say that i needed the day off. i told her that i was in the office already but needed to take off due to family matters. i think i pratically flew out of the office. i saw my bus coming and i ran like no other. i had to catch this bus becasue firstly, it takes forever for my bus to come and not say my ride home is 30 mins. my ride home can be up to near 2 hrs at times. got home and what a day it was. no regret leaving the office because i will never forgive myself if i had not left. i would rather lose my job then not to be there with my parents. my mind seems not to be with me these days. i dont think right and sometimes, i feel like im losing it. the worst part is that i cant explain why im feeling this way. or am i scared to say why. and it sucks to be going through this alone. i dont show how im feeling cuz i dnt wanna be a burden to anyone else. confused about what im rambbling about? that's exactly how im feeling. no one can understand this problem. no one.