j'adore EMMANUEL and KATELYN <3

Wednesday, August 30, 2006; 9:53 PM

im gonna try n sum up what i did yesterday.i had another FAB date with the love of my life.we went tanning at Sentosa which was juz perfect.the weather was perfect.we practically had the whole beach to yourself.haha.we soaked in the sea for awhile.haha.we talked n talked n talked.haha.went to shower...EXPOSED!hahahah.felt so fresh after that.we dined at Trapizza.my word,fab food.den we went to Ben n Jerry's n indulged once again.den we decided to go to UnderWater World.hahahahaha.that was fun.i dnt know how many times we went round the tank thingi.haha.it was so fun.hahaha.the tics for UWW includes a pass to the Dolphin Lagoon.AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...we took a pic with the dolphin.he's skin feels very elastic.hahaha.but that was one of my wish,to touch a dolphin.YAY!haha.mission accomp.it was "A" wonderful day for a wonderful date with a wonderful person.hahaha.HAIL!!!-muackz-<3

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i just saw myself,hail,mum,dad,charles,fran,uncle brian n shaun on tv.hahaha.i had to cover my eyes while watching.hahaha.Bersano's was featured on Channel U.i died laughing.OMG.watching chef buddy on TV was killing me.i cldnt stop laughing.hahahaha.HE ROCKS!!!hahaha.

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teacher's day celebration tmr.haha.old school time.i dn tknow who else is going back.haha.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

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If I have inside me the stuff to make a cocoon, maybe the stuff of butterflies is there, too.

Sunday, August 27, 2006; 1:57 AM

TCC @ Citilink

i think i can pass for Mr Star's partner.HAHAHAHA.

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18!!!oh yes.LEGAL.hahaha.

WHAT A DAY!!!

THANK YOU TO ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!! for making my 18th bday a blast.

thanks to all for the testis,msgs,calls of well wishes.hahaha.thanks so much.it means alot,from the bottom of my heart.i treasure each and every one of them.

i dnt even know where to begin.

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friday-250806:

i had a surprise bday bash @ Bersano's.hahaha.so sweet of charles,luke,siva,wendy......etc to come down for it,and godma,godpa,shaun,gerald,uncle lo and the others.

HAHAHAHA.my sis BIG BIG BIG BIG BOSS asked if sheld but me my first legal drink.wahahaha.i though it wld juz be a glass.BUT she bought me the whole bottle of white wine and she asked for the most expensive bottle they had.OMG.i froze.hahaha.lauretta baked my cake.chef gave me such a beautiful present.and uncle brian too.they were really lovely presents.

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saturday-260806:

HAHAHAHAHAHA.jo.,rach and sa wanted to surprise me while i was still in lala land.HAHAHAH.but i got up before they came.hahaha.joke rite.hahahah.but it was soooooooooo sweeeeeetttttttt of them.hahah.they all did a really nice collage of pictures for me.it was really nice with personalised msgs att.thanks babes!for the whole day i didnt know where i was going.hahahah.i juz followed.hahahah.but they were a few blurts.HAHAHAH.that was hilarious.

jo. n rach got me a STRIPE shirt from Marina Square.so sweet.=D.den we went to shoot pool.OMG.we shld have filmed that.hahahah.-covers face-.hahahah.that was really fun.seoul garden for dinner,den we wanted to go n bowl but we didnt in the end.hahah.den we headed to tcc n i had a surprise bday cake.awww.my friends are great.they really are.

we walked everywhere round the area n even made videos.hahah.mad pai sehing videos.

aaaahhhhhhhhh..i bought an Adidas bag i was eyeing.yay.now,im really eyeing the Adidas Jacket.hahah.im shagged but i had a wonderful 18th bday.MUACKZ TO ALL.

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J.LERS : HAHAHAHA.THANK YOU.THANK YOU.words cant express my love and appreciation for what you have all done for me today.thank you so much.all the planning and sacrifices.thank you so much.i love you more than you love me.HAHAHAHAH.

SHARIFAH : YES!we shall go out.WE SHALL! =D. thanks for the wish too. =D

GUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS : thanks for the wish and the 'SPECIAL' treatment for my bday.extra special suaning till thy kingdom come.thank you very much.

regarding MY MR RYAN STAR...hmm..play the guitar better than him??...HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

hahahaha.

aced the song in half n hour...HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

I SHALL GIVE YOU CREDIT FOR THAT but i shall also claim some for inspiring you.HAHAHAH.

and for goodness sake,you CAN sing!!!!-BISH-

i have prove that you can.

HAHAHAHAHA.

hee hee.

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LOVE TO ALL

-MUACKZ-

Thursday, August 24, 2006; 10:54 PM

what a date.SERIOUSLY.what a date with the love of my life.

hahahahaha.it was perfect.hahaha.

the massage...woo hoo hoo..talk about expose.hahahaha.

lunch at bersano's.we had sometin off the menu.YAY!my buddy chef.hahaha.

cabbed to The Cathay n we were lucky to get The Grand Cathay hall.the name speake for itself.it was really grand.i didnt like the ending for The Break Up.DAMN!!!hahaha.i saw this really nice Adidas sweater.red n white.oh no..its really nice.hahaha.Ben n Jerry's was super duper.wen to wisma n taka n window shopped.i saw alllllllllllotttttttttttttttttttttttttt of things i wanted to get.oh man...hahahahahaha.but it was mad fun.

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MR STAR IS H.O.T.

HE SINGS.

HE PLAYS THE GUITAR.

HE PLAYS THE PIANO.

-FAINTS-

Wednesday, August 23, 2006; 10:28 AM

WHO DA MAN.HAHA

BARCLAYS MAN OF THE MATCH : FRANK LAMPARD!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA.<3

mum keeps making fun of his surname and she calls him botak!hahahaha.

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before i say anything, i wanna say that GOD IS GREAT.AMEN!

when i made a decision to seriously change my life 2 wks+ ago, i was really set on it.and now,even more becauseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I AM GOING TO BE AN AUNTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.i have a lil nephew or niece on the way!!!what is better than the miracle of life?WOW.i cried,i jumped,i hugged,i kissed and i cried and jumped some more.HAHAHAHA.my own sister,a mummy.HAHAHAHA.oh man.hahahahaha.peepz,thanks for the congrats.and aunty sam is weird!!!hahaha

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presents are seriously coming on this year.HAHA.i had a surprise bday yest with gabby girl.we were alll going to aunty jen's place to celebrate Gabby girls bday.she turned 4 yest.so cute.haha.i didnt even notice that my name was on the cake as well wen people were singing till they sang my name.HAHAHA.-stone-.i was really tired.HAHAHA.so sweet and yeah,presents came early.haha.=D.dad's going thru a rough patch now, but my only weapon to fight this battle is God."If God brings you to it, He brings you through it." AMEN!. went bowling with him on mon.haha.mad fun.my first 2 frames were horrible.haha.he corected my shoulder,thumb and lift and it was smooth sailing after that.hahaha.

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im real excited bout today cuz this is wad im gonna do today,hail and i have an appointment at 11.30 for a body massage.HAHAHA.den we r gonna watch the Break Up den we r gonna indulge in Ben n Jerry's.HAHAHAHA.WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

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When dieting remember: What's on the table eventually becomes what's on the chair.

Monday, August 21, 2006; 11:02 AM

actor Shaun. =D

my buddy chef the BIG STAR! =D

process of filming.

the love of my life.

JOSHUA!!!!

Shaun.
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thurs was fun.haha.i think hailey met my whole family and i didnt know they were all coming.everyone came down full force.haha.let's see if i can remember who were there.

me.hail.mum.dad.mandy.godma.godpa.shaun.aunty connie.aunty laura.uncle darryl.kevin.rachel.lauretta.joshua.elisha.lauretta's family.edward.sharon.siva.pat.fran.paul.veron.luke.charles.connie.

it was really funny to see how long they could keep quiet because we had to hush hush for the filming.HAHAHAHA.

oh man..actor Shaun was hot.i owe luke a drink for taking the pic for me.and thanks to paul,he put my hand on Shaun's ass and word got round.and now,everyone keeps asking me how does Shaun's ass feel like.YES YES.IT'S VERY FIRM!!!!! -faints-.

he's nice and tall. =D

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i caught Click with Sa on sat and i cried like a baby.argh.i really did.i just thought of dad alot.it's a new chapter in his life.he has my full support but it is a diff time.sigh.n sa can laugh at me.HAHAHA.

presents came early this year.

sa bought me a beautiful watch for my bday.she spent ALOT.

Thanks sa for the present.i was really shock n i am still in shock.

went shopping.bought lots of things.hahaha.she also.mad tired.walked everywhere until night fall.hahaha.but it was fun.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------yest,aunty jess bought me a small cake for my bday cuz she thought it was on sat 19/8.haha.one week early.i was so touched.hahaha.

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alrights,im gonna watch this thing on A lilsts houses and one which costs US$59 000 000.YES YES!read again.ur eyes arent paying tricks. and im gonna continue to dream its mine and think how in the world can a house cost US$59 000 000.

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Thursday, August 17, 2006; 3:29 PM

THIS IS FROM THE COURTESY OF LISA GOH SUYIN WHO HAS OFFICIALLY GIVEN ME A REASON TO STRANGLE HER.I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS!!!!=D

QUESTION 1.

Lisa : Why did the tomato turn red?

THINK.

Ans : It saw the salad dressing. -.-

QUESTION 2.

Lisa : How do you make a tissue dance?

THINK.

Ans : Put a little boogey in it. -.-

QUESTION 3.

Lisa : What did the grape do when it got stepped on?

THINK.

Ans : It let out a little wine. -.-

QUESTION 4.

Lisa : Why dont skeletons fight with each other?

THINK.

Ans : They don't have the guts to do it. -.-

AND THERE WERE LOTS MORE.tell me if u want to strangle her.HAHA.but smart me got the ans correct or close to correct and she idiotly asked how come i was smart all of a sudden.i told her it was because of Lampard.she asked me all these questions while i was watching the England game vs Greece. [ 4 - 0 ] =D. PLUS, Lampard scored.so it rubbed off on me.HAHA.

To my one and only SA:

COME ON.

IM READY FOR ALL YOUR RIDDLES.

HAHAHA.

but make sure you ask me when im watching Lampard playing.

HEH.

speaking of Lampard, he scored the 2nd goal.oh yeah!the 3rd goal should have been him but he missed.=( .but hey,he SCORED!im still sticking to my story that someone played black magic on him during the World Cup.

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gotta get ready to meet the love of my life now.im bringing her to Bersanos cuz Mediacorp are coming down to film, so we're heading there to give support.=D.

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Love in, love out,
Find the feeling
Scream in, Scream out,
Time for healing
You feel the moment's gone too soon,
You're watching clouds come over you.
Torn in two,
You close your eyes for some place new,
Torn in two
And I feel it's going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
I'm waiting for your healing hand,
One touch could bring me round
I feel we're going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
It's just the way I'm feeling.
Glow in, burn out,
Lost the feeling
Bruise in, you bruise out,
Nurse the bleeding
Torn in two,
Each time we bruise
And I feel it's going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
I'm waiting for your healing hand,
One touch could bring me round
I feel we're going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
It's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.
Two different views,
As words confuse and break
I can't get out,
There's no way out of here,
I can't get clear.
Love in, love out,
Find the feeling.
And I feel it's going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
I'm waiting for your healing hand,
One touch could bring me round
I feel we're going down,
Ten feet below the ground,
It's just the way I'm feeling.
Yeah yeah, it's just the way I'm feeling.

Monday, August 14, 2006; 5:26 PM

SPLASH COLOURS SPLASH.
To the love of my life:
THANK YOU FOR THE TICKETS FOR THE FIREWORKS FESTIVAL!you really made my day.hahaha.and once again,thank you for picking me!!!haha.
i really had a BLAST with hail on saturday.we had max brenner's for dinner.hahaha.we just had pure chocs for dinner.dig that.haha.den we happily made our way to the Merlion with our tics free of the hustle n bustle from the crowd to catch the fireworks.we had the best view ever.it was so nice.haha.that was probably the fastest 15mins in my life.it left like 5mins.after the show, we just sat n listened to very old school emo dongs which they were blasting on the speakers.i had great company beside me,nice breeze and cool/saddist music.it was really nice.we braved the crowd back.my gosh.talk about JAM!!!
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actually,im suppose to be in new zealand now.that was my bday present from mum n dad. a break in nz.it was really cool cuz i was going without them.haha.but things took a turn when i cldnt get confirmed dosmetic flights PLUS the whole new news bout the terrorists thing.my mum said that she wldnt be able to live if something should happen to me.poor mum.i was really cool bout e situation.the very fact that they allowed me to go was already great enough for me n my tickets had already been issued.poor mummy had to pay penalty now for cancelling but she said "i rather pay penalty than lose you."it really hit me.and i juz found out an hour ago that the plane that i was to take got delayed for over a day bcuz there was an angine problem!!!!i was too shock to say anything.
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bas..sayang.hello!!!if you're reading this, thanks for buying the bag for me.muackz.
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liverpool 2 -chelsea 1. i like both sides.haha.so i was neither here nor there but slightly bias cuz of lampard.HAHA.my word, he ~~was~~ is H.O.T.especially during prize presentation.hmmmm.haha.

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just one of the songs played after the fireworks:remember this song?i do. clearly.
You say I only hear what I want to
You say I talk all the time so
And I thought what I felt was simple
And I thought that I don't belong
And now that I am leavin'
Now I know that I did somethin' wrong 'cause I missed you
Yeah, yeah, I missed you
And you say I only hear what I want to
I don't listen hard, don't pay attention
To the distance that you're running
To anyone, anywhere
I don't understand if you really care
I'm only hearing negative
No, no, no
So I, I turn the radio on, I turn the radio up
And this woman was singin' my song
Lover's in love and the other's run away
Lover is crying cause the other won't stay
Some of us hover while we weep for the other who was
Dyin' since the day they were born
Well, well, this is not that
I think that I'm throwin', but I'm thrown
And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure
You try to tell me that I'm clever
But that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you
You said that I was naive
And I thought that I was strong, oh
I thought, "Hey I can leave, I can leave"
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, cause I missed you
Yeah, I missed you
You said, you caught me cause you want me*
And one day you let me go
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me
Cause you know you're just so scared to lose
And you say, "Stay"
You say I only hear what I want to

Thursday, August 10, 2006; 2:31 PM

i have finally uploaded photos from the Sentosa outing and La Passion. SORRY for the delay.haha.to my partner in crime...HAHA.

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SORRY!haha.

this is irritating but funny somehow. whenever i can sleep for more than 8 hrs or even 24 hrs.HAHA.i never get too. i somehow only get 2 hrs of sleep these days. i have no idea why. it's irritating but i laugh at the situation. haha. but my eyes are beginning to hurt...like this stinging pain. haha.

How can i forget you
Disregard how i feel
Silently listen
To the words i can't see
As long as i have tried
As low as i can be
I will never resign myself
From the trial i seek
Why should i forgive you
After all that i've seen
Quietly whisper
When my heart wants to scream
For as long as i have tried
And as low as i can be
I will never resign myself
From the trial i seek
There's no time to rest
Or to reconsider
For this cruel unsaid
Won't concede

BUT

i don't keep a record of wrongs. i really don't.

the word is FORGIVENESS.

Monday, August 07, 2006; 11:58 AM

you got wires, goin in
you got wires, comin out of your skin
you got tears
making tracks
i got tears
that are scared of the facts

running down corridors
through automatic doors
got to get to you
got to see this through
i see hope is here in a plastic box
i've seen christmas lights reflect in your eyes

you got wires, goin in
you got wires, comin out of your skin
there's dry blood on your wrist
your dry blood on my fingertip

running down corridors
through automatic doors
got to get to you
got to see this through
first night of your life
curled up on your own
looking at you now
you would never know

i see it in your eyes
i see it in your eyes
you'll be alright
i see it in your eyes
i see it in your eyes
you'll be alright

Alright

running down corridors
through automatic doors
got to get to you
got to see this through
i see hope is here in a plastic box
i've seen christmas lights reflect in your eyes

down corridors
through automatic doors
got to get to you
got to see this through
first night of your life
curled up on your own
looking at you now
you would never know

Sunday, August 06, 2006; 11:11 PM

just look at Lampard. OMG. just look at him. that face. that hair. that tan. that bod.

-faints-

Friday, August 04, 2006; 12:50 AM

just got off the phone with sweetie. i feel so good and so much better now. i love her so much.

if you're reading this sweetie, I LOVE YOU! and thank you for all the support, love, concern, advice, nagging, crap, jokes, bullying and most of all, the LAUGHS. haha. MUACKZ. <3

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on another bright note, my BIG presentation from last thurs(27/7) was pushes to (1/8). and it was FABULOUS. we scored excellent on all the criterias except two. haha. that was absolutely fab. besides some technical faults, the rest went fab. i played Belle from Beauty and the Beast. so i was twirling and dancing in my gown n praying to not to fall flat on my face. haha. i didnt. -whew-. wen ms was going through all the groups, talking on how we scored, i had my 10 secs of fame.ms asked me to stand up to show the class my "beautiful gown on my beautiful sam". HAHAHAHAHA. -waves at class-. -class claps-. WTF!!!.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. hahahahaha. i cldnt stop laughing. all of us really dressed. fi looked so good as snow white, lil as the little mermaid, bas at little red riding hood, zak as princess jasmine, hai as sleeping beauty n ana as the prince. HAHAHAHA. wad a blast. and wad a way to end my cert. prac 2 coming up soon. cant wait. STRESS! BIG TIME! but i can do it!!!yes i can. i have to psycho myself. i have some time to do that. ok, i have a paper to write now.

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i love all my friends. i really do. i love all of you.