i had two choices yesterday. i could have thought for myself n leave the grp to work with another.where i know i will be happy or i cld remain with my grp n work things out eventhough i wasnt comfortable with one.i could choose to be selfish or think of the ones i started this journey with.i chose to stick by the ones i love n care for.it's now gonna be easy but im doing it for them.it really cracked my heart wen i took my bag n got up from my seat to almost join e other grp wen ana grabbed my wrist n asked me to stay.damn it.she was tearing n i was stuck.i love her,fi,hai n bas lots.for them,i remained.but damn it.if that -beep- steps a lil more on my feet,i will NOT hesitate to give her a piece of my mind.ive kept silent.but there is so much one can take.ive thought about it through and i promise, i wnt regret the things i will say to her if she pushes me.i will say it ALL with no vulgarities.DONT TRY ME!dont take my kindness as my weakness.well, hai to her "dont give me s***".kudos to hai for tellin her straight into her face.
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on another note, a happier note, ive made new friends.hahaha.to speed up my course, i chose to sit in the Creative Arts module with another class all by myself.i prayed so hard for things to go well.WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.IT DID.THANK YOU LORD!in my new grp in this new class, i have sally,siti,jayeeta??(i dunno how to spell) and john.hahaha.we were already being graded for an assignment today...during our very first lecture!!!we did well.john is so creative,my gosh.i wanna learn from him n the others.they really made me see things from a whole diff angle.for out presentation next week, we had to write this thing on Art.so we were all discussing,exchanging num n emails n setting datelines to finish it up then john said,"i have to go to Rome tmr".i went blank.haha.i was like,"huh.wad do u work as?".he is an air steward.hahahahaha.so coooooooooooollllllllllllllllllll.no wonder he struck me wen he entered class.he spoke exceptionally well.his manners reminded me of charles n the way he dressed n how he carried his self.WOW.i mean...he stuck out from everyone else.haha.it was really nice talkin to him n getting to know him.i feel tired for him studying n flying.i salute him!i like my creative arts group.hahaha.WEEEEEEEEEEEE.
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my sayang is so sweet.during break, i had a kit kat chunky delivered to me.hahahaha.and after class,JOKE!i stayed back with my new grp discussing bout the proj,den i felt my fon vibrating.hahaha.sayang called to say,"you finishing already?...im waiting for u downstairs".hahahaha.little did i know, i missed previous calls n msgs.hahahah.next thing i know, i see my sayang's face at my classroom door.WAHAHAHAHAHAHA.i wanted to laugh so badly whilt trying to keep at a straight face discussing my project wif my grp.hahaha.wen i was done, grabbed my bag n ran out of the door n laughed like mad.my sayang's train came first bcuz today...my sayang's going the other way,so we had to split but noooooooooooooooooooo...my sayang wanted to send me off first in my train.MADNESS!damn bloody sweet of my sayang.i felt so loved.ahhhhhhhhh...i love my sayang.HAHAHAHAHAHA.
-muackz-
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lecture 2 tmr on Language Arts.i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee that module.so much to learn i love it.it's all about the power of English.something like that.im gonna get confused soon,taking Language Arts n Creative Arts at the same time.hahaha.
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france lost.='(.but it was an entertaining match.hahaha.i love Pirlo from Italy though.he's FAB!oooooo...n that Italian player who wasnt playing that day,ermm,Birzagli??anyone knows his name properly?hahah...i think he is e defender.my gosh,he's so cute.hahaha.n i think Ribery played the best from France.i didnt like him,i dnt know y but he played the best that day.Zidane??...cant wait for all the news to come out on what the freak happened.
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I was always on your side,
I'm always on your side
<3
Monday, July 10, 2006; 12:39 AM
Lord, please give me the strength to go through this difficult time. Amen.
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Last Friday was soooooooooooooooooooooo good. My life was spinning out of control. Too fast for me and friday helped ALOT!it was the last night of The BizTRO n we were celebrating Charles n Andy's Bday. Hilarious crap. Lots of kissing n hugging though. ALOT!(with various people) HAHA. i bought Andy stuff toys. HAHAHAHA. dig that. i bought my brother in law stuff toys. a pair, symbolising him n my sis.hahaha.i cldnt stop laughing wen i was purchasing it.i had no idea wad to get Charles so i wrote him a card.hahaha.alot of thought went into it.decorated it n all.weeeeeee.anyway...wad really cheered me up that day was something which caught me by surprise. all i know was that i was either stoning or lost in my own world, just not paying attention to anyone wen it all happened. i was taken aback. but i dont think i felt that secure in a long time. that kind of feeling of feeling so secured in that person's arms n hearing nice words from that person. just holding one another round the waist n going round in circles.HAHAHAHA.n laughing n hearing really nice stuff from the person. it was nice to feel that way again after such a long time. best part of it, it all happened in front of my daddy.hahaha.n he didnt say a word,all he did was smile.saw mum whispering some things to him.hahahaha.my gosh,my dad smiled at it.hahahah.inside i was like shaking.hahaha.but i had nothing to hide. so i was actually cool bout it. i really had nothing at all to hide from my dad or mum. n both of them know how much this person means to me. how the person played a vital role in my life.it's the small lil things which mean so much to me.
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englands out. ='(. im sad.the only thing that i looked forward too was watching lampard play. he missed a penalty.i screamed.hahahahah.i still thing someone played black magic on him.i strongly believe that!-hmph-.hahaha.the finals are in an hr?...2hrs?COME ON FRANCE!!!woo hooooooooooooooooooooo.
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bas got engaged on sat 080706.hahahahaha.my first of my own frens getting engaged.helped to decorate n all.my gosh...she looked absolutely gorgeous.so funnnnnnnnnnnnn...borrowed a kebaya specially for her engagement.hahahahahaha.im so happy for her.nice ring.hahahah.
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seah,sharifah,boo,thanks for all the love.appreciate it lots. love you all so much.
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seventhreezero and on.
