Thursday, June 29, 2006; 11:25 PM

honestly, im on a roller coaster. mum's not well. dad isnt doing too well either (in another way). i dnt know, but i think, with only me left in the household, i feel a bigger load of responsibility. i wanna make things run smoothly n make sure my parents dnt worry n take things easy. im tryin to take everything in n handle it. so far, think im doin fine but i do get flustered with myself. i feel like, i juz do not have an outlet. its a one way street. i dnt wanna bother my parents with it bcuz i dnt wanna put a load on them. im happy wen they can use me as an outlet to talk about things. i put on this happy smiley face but deep inside, i feel as if im battling something. but i dnt know wad is it. there is this confusion that i feel that im facing but i dnt know the root of it. the irony is tt, this wk, more people have poured out to me things. im glad that they see me as a listening ear n a comforting shoulder. im always happy to help ppl out. but somehow, sometimes, i do wish i knew how to help myself out. wads more, i have to make ONE decision which will affect my life.-prays- thats why i have God right by my side and my Guardian Angel too.
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ENGLAND VS PORTUGAL (SAT, 11PM)
the big joke in my household...
dad's roots : the English
mum's roots: the Portugese
me: -faints-
HAHAHAHAHA. I CLDNT STOP LAUGHING. its gonna be a battlefield in my own household on sat night.hahahaha.no need to go to Germany.come to my place.heh.
dad : "darling(refering to mummy), i let your side win la"-winks-
me : "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
mum : "wad do you mean let us win. we WILL win"
me : -faints-
who do i choose since im the product of the two of them..hahaha.easy.
IM ON THE SIDE WHERE THE BOY I WANT TO MARRY IS FROM.
"LAMPARD, LAMPARD, LAMPARD, LAMPARD!!!"hahahaha.
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Charles is going to Munich.damn.i so wanna go there now.lucky fella, world cup on.he gets to go there..mum asked me to tell him what i wanted.hahaha.
mum: "Charles, you're going to Munich rite?can catch the world cup"
charles: "yeah.haha"
mum: "tell Charles la"
me: -blush- and says "i want to marry frank lampard"
charles: "ok.if i see him, im sure to pass the msg to him for you.HAHAHAHAHAHA"
im so not shy.hahahahhah.we all cldnt stop laughing.hahahahahaha.
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frank lampard is my happy pill.



Monday, June 26, 2006; 1:23 AM

ENGLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BECKHAM!!! i give credit wen credit is due. his free kick. -applause-. no one can beat him in that. WOW. hahaha.
im mad happy. i screamed and jumped for joy and i didnt care whether i woke the whole world up. haha. mum came out n joined me. haha. i wore my ENGLAND jersey out today. so proud i wore it out. ahahahaha. i think someone is playing black magic on Lampard. poor boy. his time is coming. IT IS! whenever he missed, mum said "ahh...wasted!!!"..wahhhhhhh...i just looked at my mum with my eyes widely opened. HAHAHAHA. had a good laugh. i think it was so funny when in the early mins, Lampard missed and mouthed the F word and it was all on camera. hahaha. that was cute. mum enjoyed the part where rooney was signaling for the Ecuador fella to shoo away cuz he was making noise about a free kick to England's advantage near the final mins. hahah. mum cldnt stop laughing. she likes rooney. according to her, "typical english boy". haha.
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why in the world am i so drawn to Lampard? i HAD no idea. and yes, i use the word DRAWN! like, whenever i saw him playing, i would smile from ear to ear. sometimes i think im mad. the England match with Ecuador helped me realise WHY! it hit me why i like Lampard so much. whenever i look at Lampard, i saw HIM in Lampard. HE, this person whom i have buried 6ft under my heart has slowly been revived thru some incidents recently. weird but true. the weirdest part is Lampard's eyes and nose reminds me of him. HAHAHA. and it does not help that HE is a footballer too, like Lampard. -faints-



Wednesday, June 21, 2006; 10:10 PM

I AM IN LOVE WITH FRANK LAMPARD!!! I WANT TO MARRY HIM!!! hahaha. caught the england vs sweden game at 3am. no comments but all i have to say, defence needs some work. Lampard is such a hardworking player. he tries and tries n tries. he never gives up. =D. and his shots from mid field. WOO HOO HOO. just to watch him playing makes me smile so much. hahaha. i think im nuts..but what the heck. hahaha. FRANK LAMPARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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EYE CANDIES FOR THE WORLD CUP : =D
LAMPARD - ENGLAND
KAKA- BRAZIL
TORRES- SPAIN
MCBRIDE- USA
BALLACK - GERMANY
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SENTOSA ROCKED ON SAT! haha. i had a blast with all the peepz. funny things happened that day. got a tan. =D. i will post ALL the photos soon alrights? keep checking the right side -points- okies? -MUACKZ- to all of you.
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an old flame, flickering back to life.
youresemblehim
=D



Friday, June 09, 2006; 5:47 PM

tues. oh tues. haha. 060606. memories flood my mind. sigh. oh well, lots of things happened to occupy my mind. WEEEEE. aunty doris asked if i cld serve for aunty kp's big opening at red dot for 4 hrs at night. chelsea girl was performing also wif the Jazz Kids that night. i gladly said yes. anything for aunty doris. she is such a lovely lady. glad i got to know her. it was a high, bog shot event. really impt. i was dressed in all black. wen i got there, the place was decorated to the top. i opened the door n the first person i saw, Ernie. haha. he was the photographer. hmmm. haha. den saw aunty doris. got straight to work aunty karen n aunty doris were in charge of fnb that night. i realised the rest serving were all related. michael's cousins. -kill me-. i cldnt wait for anna to come. my heart stopped for awhile. i tot it was nick, but this guy was nick's cousin, kenneth. look like him. i nearly fainted. haha. n told kenneth straight, i tot u were nick. n he told me ppl said he looks like ernie. no way la. i was kinda pissed off wif some of e ppl at first. i nearly used a filthy word on them but i juz controlled myself. it paid off controllin myself cuz in their faces, they were told, "Samantha is experienced." HAH. in ur faces ppl. see e change after tt.haha. felt gd, im mean. oh well, wen the guests started to arrive, n i was serving, i felt like theresa from The OC, serving the big shots. haha. red wine, white wine, fruit punch? kenneth n wei young were the bartenders. the wine was juz flowing. haha. i got compliments from the guests. =D. that was really nice. n sumtin else happened n i never knew that side of me till today. haha. i kind of like that side of me. it's fun. heh. wen i ended my shift, i changed n practically screamed my lungs out wen chelsea girl was performing her solo. i was so proud of her. anna, uncle milton n i were screaming n dancing the night away. we did care about anyone. we juz danced n danced n sang n sang. uncle brian came up n brought me down after it ended. haha. they were all drinking. haha. anna n uncle milton came too. we went to this club?/pub?, i dunno wad kind of place la but related to a pub kind of thing. it was called skin. went down, victoe, fran, timmy, siva n uke were there. den bernard came too. MAD FUN! laugh n laugh n laugh. den, i saw a familiar face, ernie came down to skin too. i called out to him n i got interogated. "u 17 or 18?" basket. i said i was 18 in 2 months n he looked at me n my drink. n told him, how bout urself?bleah...n he was 18 already. dammit. i didnt get e chance to tell him, "I'M HAVING A MOCKTAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!"argh. good ah, now he thinks i drink. oh well, timmy was disturbing the waiter like crazy in a damn funny way. ahhh...madness. anyway, 2 shirley temples for me tt night n timmy took e tab. mad crappin wif luke n all. timmy was like planning my 18th bday. funny girl. the amount of ppl who wants to get me drunk... its scary. haha. i have no idea wad time we left but luke was mad crappin up jokes which i cldnt tahan. damn funny la tt fella. some are too sick to say.HAHAHA. lets see, i dnt know y but i cldnt see the blue light of cabs properl n i stumbled on my address. hahaha. luke n uncle brian were saying tt my shirley temple was either damn strong in one way or another or it haad alcohol. n they can laugh at me like mad. cabbin home wif luke, victor n uncle brain was fun. luke was still crappin like mad. n know he knows where i stay, he loves eating at 85.so cool.hahaha.this is a conversation,
Brain: "Luke, on friday, start singing at 8.30 ok"
Luke: "Haha. Ok"
Sam: "WOW.Luke, you can sing?I didnt know. How come i never hear u sing?"
Brain: "Bcuz wen Luke starts to sing, all the customers go home"
-ALL LAUGH-
Luke: "Haha, Sam, impressed till u heard about the customers going home rite?"
Sam: -CLDNT STOP LAUGHIN-
poor thing la.hahahahaha. i had such a blast that nite. skin is fun. i had work at 9.30am n it was mad getting up. i officially know wad it is like to hold 2 jobs. HAHA.
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thursday, dinner at rit carlton. WOW.WOW.WOW.WOW. aunt ros was buying dinner. really good time spent. spritually, i feel so uplifted n closer to God. i love time spent with her. n i also got to check out her new mercs. another, WOW.
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WORLD CUP!!!!!!!!!!YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOUR YEARS FOR THIS DAY. N IT'S FINALLY HERE. oh yeah. im bhind ENGLAND n SPAIN. it's a damn stupid reason y im behind spain too. hahaha.
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i don't drink when i'm cycling
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
inside joke from tuesday.
=D



Tuesday, June 06, 2006; 1:06 PM

i want out of this game. period.
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how much is too much?
too much to love.
too much to bear.
too much to give.
too much to take.
too much to know.



Friday, June 02, 2006; 11:45 PM

on sunday, i went for GREASE!so damn happy i managed to go.the best part, i had premium tix.red carpet treatment, literally walking down red carpet,pre-cocktail,damn good undivided attention service.wahahaha.the show was ok.i still love the movie.no one can ever beat that.the fella who was KINIKI was so hot.i always liked his character from the show itself.he was super hot.his body, his looks.the whole package.wow!n his part was practically making out wif ruzzo 85% of the show.i wasnt even concentrating on the plot.i was looking at him making out in the corner with her.HOT!hahaha.half way during interval, i heard a shout, "Teacher Samantha!!!". i froze.hahah.one of my ex student from cat class. n everyone turnes to look. -blush- it was so funny. she telling me, "the show it quite bad bcuz they point the middle finger u know.".HAHAHA. i told her not to learn the bad trades.haha.
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wednesday, mum n i went down to The BizTRO to surprise uncle brian as it was his bday. i had an infection of my right eye. i think it was lookin at ppl making out too much.hahah. my eye lied was swollen, inner n outer. used eye liner to cover up.haha. let me describe wednesday's atmosphere at The BizTRO. there were lots of HUGS, KISSES AND LOVE. love was just all around. we surprised him with a bday cake. the regulars, mum n i were all singing away. connie was shouting it out over the mountain.HAHAHA.funny crap. n then, they were trying to get him drunk. it didnt help tt my gift to him was 4 shot glasses wif games. e main aim, to get drunk.hahaha. ahhhh, charles kept bullying me about my eye. he was the only one who knew about it. then throughout the whole night, wenever we saw one another, he would point at my me n my eye.ahhhh...i can strangle him. the best part...the super best part, fran,mum n charles were having a conversation den i joined it. charles looked at me, laughed n gave a evil smile.-bish-.n i gave him the killer look n said 'ssshh'. fran's response, "hey..what is going on between the two of you? im disturbed" charles n i broke out laughing like mad n charles told her to continue drinking. wahahaha. she was like 'fine...fine...the two of you". i think i nearly died on the spot laughing. ah...what a day that was.
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my sis passed her driving......weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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i just got back from The BizTRO. this time, mum n i surprised mandy. it's her bday TMR, 3rd june.but before that, mummy n i went shopping. spent the whole day with her n it rocked. bought lots of things. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i love the things she bought me. wen to The BizTRO in the evening. once again, that night was filled with lots of HUGS, KISSES AND LOVE. i wore shades the whole day wen i was out bcuz my eye was still bad, wen i went there, i got compliments.weeee..i look good in shades.hahaha.den i saw...charles.hahaha.that fella, again i got it good from him.it'll never end.hahahaha. mandy got a shock to see all of us there. uncle brain got her a cake n once again, we sang over the mountains.hahaha.it was so nice tonight.
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love your firm grip.