Saturday, May 27, 2006; 4:55 PM

- THOUGHTS-
  1. it's sad when people change for the WORST! (don't you think so?)
  2. don't be someone you're NOT.
  3. define the word 'friend'.
  4. do you consider youreslf a friend if you just want to outdo your friend all the time...or should i say 'friend'.
  5. are you really happy when your friend finds happiness or do you hate her in your heart?
  6. do you lack empathy?
  7. are you a true 'friend'?
  8. does material needs really bring you true happiness?
  9. when you try so hard to be someone you are not, it is almost nauseating.
  10. you forget the person you were. the person who was much better all round.

oh, the horror.

i just read some article which explains the 1-10.

p.s.DON'T TAKE IT TO HEART. =D

off to 'party'.-muackz-

<3




Wednesday, May 17, 2006; 11:28 PM

MY K1'S before their performance(without the twins)
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-they make life interesting for me all over again
-they remind me of how the small little things in life can bring so much joy to my life
-they drain away all my tiredness and worries
-they recharge me
-they teach me how caught up we can get in today's society and how we miss the most valuable things in life
-they make me believe in myself all over again
-they teach me how small things like a small tickle can make someone laugh so hard
-they make me feel like a child all over again
-they show me how words can kill a person
-they show me how hugs and kisses are valuable and not taken for granted
-they remind me of the power of praise
-they teach me silly things which are funny but are considered "lame" in the adult world
-they make me appraciate life
-they are showing me how valuable life is
-they are showing me how simple life can be buy yet we make it so complicated
-they show me the value of such small little things to us, like a high 5 and a hug
-till i met them, the word "I LOVE YOU" had a different meaning
-they say and mean the words they say
-they further express their words through actions
-they show me how to forgive and mean it
-they show me how important listening is
and most important...
-they show me how important love is in this world.
love does make the world go round.
<3



Sunday, May 14, 2006; 7:14 PM

"Teacher Samantha!!!". for the past 4 days, ive gotten used to be calling that.attachment has been tiring, exhausting but freaking funny, exciting and shocking.hahaha.i can really learn alot from my kids.im taking the k1's.haha.such darlings...ahhh...my mum warned me, "Sam,you might break when it's ur last day of attachment." for sure im gonna miss them.they make my life so much more interesting.it's like,when i wake up in the morning,im really tired but i look forward to go to work because, u never ever know what to expect from them.the innocent lil ones.haha.cnt wait to see them tmr already!i bet my praticum supervsior who will be judging me will be coming this week.-prays for everything to go well-.haha.it's tiring because once i come home, im mentaly and physically drained.hahaha.a lot of talking and explanations.they are very curious.hahaha.then once im home, i have to do my reports on my day and my observations.damn tiring.i know thursday i was at my peak.i was really stressed out cuz my whole face/jaw area and ears all cramped up and i cldnt move.everything tightened up and it was throbbing.freaking pain.i had running nose too den i burnt up with fever but i really pushed myself and told myself it was mind over matter n burnt the midnite oil to complete my obs.i still didnt get better since last month.throat still killing me.argh.it's irritating.BUT...the best part of thursday, the whole centre was putting up a performance for their mummies and daddies. when my k1's were performing, i felt so proud of them. i had the responsibly of dressing them up. they looked so cute.hahaha.get to see them tmr!!!hahaha.
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friday we celebrated mother's day at grandma's place.i dropped some stuff there first wif mum then i went to the mall myself to shop.dad had to go for a launch at Zouk.haha.mall was freaking crowded.went back to grandma's place and everyone had arrived.it was damn funny.all the sons/grandsons came out before cutting the cake where all the mothers' were seated and said something.each guy took a letter,M-O-T-H-E-R-S.hahaha.some were hilarious.nan was the best,he did actions for S."mothers are sweet,mothers are super,mothers are sexy".hahaha.and he was acting all these words out.i nearly died laughing.keith also had a good line,"T is for terrible.thats wad we are.yet you are all so tolerant".hahahah.den later on, alot of sick jokes were being made.hahaha.by who else but uncle milton.i juz covered my face.hahaha.n keith did this really sick trick/illusion.it's REALLY SICK.basket,and he made my help him in it.its really sick.eeeeeeeeeee.i was releasing all my frustrations and anger on the punching bag. it seriously helps.i think i punched and kicked till thy kingdom come.i had to spent the entire night proving and convincing that WE are NOT together.hahaha.i guess that the word FRIENDS does not exist wen it comes to the both of us.hahaha.and it's YOUR fault.who ask you to say things like that wen i wasnt around that time?n touch my stuff too.bleah. HAHAHA.jkjk. wen the kids went home, i finally could shoot pool.played to wee hours.hahaha.till 1.30am actually.dad came over after Zouk.so funny the stories he was telling me.shooting pool wif daddy is fun.hahaha.he thrashed me good.hahah.mum is stil learning.so funny but she is learning.i was shagged after that.really tired.
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mandy and andy are homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.woke up to surprise them at the airport on saturday.the joke,we cldnt spot them but andy surprised us instead by creeping up on us.hahaha.mum screamed.hahaha.so nice to hear the stories.the went to LA-disneyland and hawaii.it's really nice to hear that hubby and wife had a wonderful time.i was happy to see then happy.haha
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HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
I LOVE MY MUMMY!!!
i bought my mummy a bag and im baking for godma.haha.
this is what i got a lot from church today, "HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO YOU. soon ah sam.soon."
my reply, "hahah.long time more."wif my eyes open widely.
HAHAHAHA.
IM 17 GOING ON 18!
NOT 27 GOING ON 28!
-bish-HAHAHA.
i thought the class a song to sing to their mummies.
so cute.
my mummy was watching me and she felt so proud of me.
so sweet of her.
hahahah.
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okies, back to more reports, sneezing, pills and baking.
sick combination rite?
hahah.
i know.
love you peepz.
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I LOVE MUMMY, I LOVE MUMMY,
YES I DO, YES I DO,
MUMMY FOR THE HUGGING,
MUMMY FOR THE KISSING,
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY,
I LOVE YOU!!!
(to the tune of "I HEAR THUNDER")
<3



Monday, May 08, 2006; 11:51 PM

May 5th
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUS!!!
hope you like the prezzie. =D
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MAY 6TH
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DEE!!!
went for Tanya's surprise bday party.haha.tryin to surprise her at the front door was a joke.has false alarm.it was actually mal and all, and we thought it was tanya cuz we had the signal that tanya was coming in.haha.went the birthday girl came in, poppers were popping here and there.haha.all her prezzies were in the cupboard.really cool.it was filled.haha.back to bbq the food went it started to drizzle.got wet saving the food.haha.not helpin my health.haha.what did we do to occupy ourselves indoor, TAKE PHOTOS!!!hahaha.snap here,snap there.it was like aa 5.2 reunion with patricians.haha.had good music playing with ermm..issit shaun or sean jansen playing the guitar n another fella.wow!!!damn bloody good.i just stared in amazement at how fast his fingers were going on the guitar.i will never know how that works.haha.damn it!im learning...slowly but surely.haha.tried to start the bbq again, i know some tried to back for charcoal but no one wanted to give us.haha.i dont really know wad happened bcuz i went wif rach to pick deb n muni.freakin miss them.wen it came to cutting the cake,it was the LONGESTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT birthday somf i had ever sung.HAHAHAHA."Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappy Birthday to you......"hahahaha.it was probably longer than that.hahahaha.trust patricians.hahaha.it was fun.i think for me, the absolutly highlight of the part was how aaron and tanya smashed cake into each others face.it was like a classic moment.hahaha.the way it was done was hilarious!hahaha.sent muni back, it's been forever since the 2 of us had a car ride back together.hahaha.hope you enjoyed ur birthday party Tanya!!!
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May 7th
mum n i had a good laugh when mass started. she started it.HAHAHAHA.anyway, class was fab.chiara-ann...such a doll.it's the attachment.loving girl.lunch at Hyatt hotel @ Straits Kitchen.michelle bought early mothers' day lunch for mummy.such a sweet god-daughter.haha.lunch was yummy yum yum. my health is seriously deterioting. and it sucks big time.
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May 8th
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 18TH TANYA!!!
it's the start of practicum.and it went well.and im shagged.hahahaha.damn tiring but, satisfying.10days!!!wow.lets see how it goes.haha.i would actually be fine if i did not have so many htings on my mind.i have to hand up my math assignment by wed..so i have to make my way down to TP by wed no matter what.i have my science assignment and my professional development as well.PLUS,my practicum report.cant wait for break.im gonna seriously shut down and recharge was my 2nd half.hahaha.alrights,i have lots more to do.i got sick of writing reports,tts y im blogging.
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it was my mistake, and i know it.
i only have myself to blame.
after a deep conversation, i am erasing that part of me.
as of May 6 2006, i am no more that person.
that part of me has been taken away from me.
i know i am not that kind of person.
it is my fault.
i am not blaming anyone.
i need to do this.
for the love of my loved ones,
for the love of my loved ONE,
and for the love of me.



Monday, May 01, 2006; 8:20 PM


where do i even begin???
SUNDAY[300406]
i went to nan's bday.he is seriously growing up really fast.his party started at 3pm but we went later cuz mum was kinda sick n i was seriously sick.haha.but he refused to cut his cake till my mum got there cuz he seriously loves her a lot.she's his godma.so sweet.haha.belle was a doll as usual.went to walk with her to the swing.the swing they installed is really nice.haha.it was outside ernie's place.belle went to shout his name.hahaha.it was so funny.n he was shouting back "Isabelle".haha.i guess it wasnt a really appropriate time cuz...let's just say he wasnt appropriately dressed.HAHAHA.my mum came n offered him sandwiches.she went to his house with the whole tray.HAHAHA.den i found out he had juz finished playing a game of squash and he juz got out of e pool.haha.went back n cleaned up belle's wounds.poor girl.her wounds from the previous day was bleeding.me and blood are like ice cream and garlic.yeah...HAHAHA.i seriously had to put on a brave face.haha.den i say my goodbyes and left for gus bday party.dad drove me there.got there and saw familiar faces.haha.tt was good.had a phone call and at that moment, i didnt know what to do.i was like "FREAK!!!"i didnt know what to do.but i cldnt do anything.i was lost for quite some time after i got that call.i dunno whether i still regret my decision though.im still questioning myself.anyway, it was mad fun at gus place.his friends are M.A.D...they really know how to have a good time.u can seriously laugh till u tear.gus and his other friends were playing the guitar and it was like a sing-a-long...or something near it.hahahaha.damn funny la.had a blast.parents picked michelle n i up.got home, and mum was telling me some stuff.and once again i went "FREAKKKKKKKKKKK" but it was a much longer freak.haha.damn it la.i dunno if i did wrong or right.i think i did wrong..but yet..i think i did right.i dunno la.bleahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
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MONDAY[010506]
Holy Trinity's confirmation today.got up early to get flowers.haha.and cabbed down there.met sa.we were early for mass.dig that.hahaha.normally wen i meet sa, we are NOT early for mass.haha.we sat juz behind the confirmants.den nic joined us.den later,claire and clarance.den..guess what...we were asked to move out when the confirmants came in cuz there was no more space for them.wa lao.-bish-we went behind and it was like SAC NATION.haha.anyway,laura,cyn,fran,van all looked damn good.haha.photos here...photos there.finally met cyn's bro Nicholas.heard a lot bout him.haha.he is a ladies man.seriously.haha.but he is a nice fella.stayed in church for awhile.so others who got confirmed too.saw shaun.haha.with braces.hehe.long time no see my bro.chatted for awhile den off to cyn's place for PARTY.haha.but befire that,wen the whole grp was walking out of church, russel and jon were crappin alot.hahaha.they are freaking funny.madness!!!hahaha.crap la they all.haha..kk..cyn's neighbour drove us there.i finally got to ride in the car i like.the lexus rx300.ah...so nice.hahaha.cyn's home is really nice.well furnished.damn nice.after chillin at her place, we went down to the e function room.to sum it up,GOOD FOOD,GOOD MUSIC,GOOD COMPANY,GOOD DANCING.i learnt how to salsa and i learnt the mirangue.so cool.it was dancing all the way after makan.really fun.hahaha.gosh.it was soooooooo fun.everyone was all dancing away.had a great day.WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.