Thursday, September 29, 2005; 5:51 PM

STY!hahah.didnt go to sch yest.i woke up n felt like someone juz punched me in the left eye.hahah.asked daddy to check it out n it was swollen.damn pain.so much for sleepin early yest.hahahah.msg...msg...msg till 1am+ makin sure dell got home safely.hee hee.AND NOW IM CALLED A GOLDFISH!bleah!
stupid sty.today i juz wanted to scratch me eye ball out.it hurts.my sty is not obvious cuz of my double eye lids.whoever who wants a double eye lid wld love to be in my position.hahah.science prac today.im so sick of pracs.i dunno but i feel so motivated to study more ever since i had to break some news to my daddy yest about a certain outing comin up.hahahah.his reaction was kind of big."......!why .......?"hahahah.now,more than ever,i wanna show my daddy that ....... isnt a distraction.hahahahah.mum was saying it was natural of a daddy to feel that way.hahahahah.its damn cute,yet funny,yet worrying,yet confusing.thats how i felt after tellin daddy the news.oh well...STUDY TIME!i got to push myself.i got to.
the grad night photos are up---->look to the right under snapz.ENJOY!<3



Sunday, September 25, 2005; 9:23 PM

thursday[220905]
we had youth mission at OLPS on wed n thurs.it was cool.heh.thurs,i had to rush down to pass grad nite tics to my sis.managed to grab a cab before the heavy pour came down.left e tics at e biztro.they had a wrong order,so i ended up eating the burger.it was darn good.hahaha.randell was going for his first sales.he changed to long sleeves.woo hoo hoo.hahahah.hanged round n talked to him den zecki came.hahah.laugh..laugh..laugh.stupid jokers!
friday[230905]HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON!!!
grad nite came...grad nite went.hahahah.i cant imagine that,grad nite juz passed like tt.everyone looked darn good.hahah.it was a gd nite.i was sitting in between nic n sa.we were all controllin our laughter at times....a lot of times.pics..pics..pics.hahaha.mum surprised me wif my fav flowers,lilies.heh.n my sis bought me a rose.they all managed to come on time despite their work schedules.tt touched me.heh.wen down to e biztro for supper?hahah.we called them n ordered our fd while we were on the way there.wen i got there,it was like a private party for me!hahahah.no one was there except my uncle brian,augus,anna,lucas,zecki and randell.heh,i was treated like a princess.hahah.randell was tryin to keep his promise not to laugh at me.in my white dress!!!BUM!hahah.but he didnt.cuz if he did...i wld hav killed him!!!hahaha.had supper n crapped alot.den all of a sudden,augus came out wif a tray of wine n served me.weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.hahahah.a toast for me!hahah.daddy gave a speech n wow..wad a speech he gave.i still got bullied tt nite by randell.bleah!!hahah.but i was treated well.he was damn naughty dat nite.the most embarassing part of the day,i fell.hahahahha.i think i wen red.dad tot it was the wine.hahahah.but it was my heels.hahahahah.had a present from my uncle.i love him to bits!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!everyone there was in high spirits.laughing non stop,crapping non stop,bullying non stop.what a night.hahahah.i'll put pics up.heh.at the side under snapz.
saturday[240905]HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUNI!!!
grandma's bday bash at changi beach club.my uncle had a surprise for me.he invited someone to the celebration.e person was suppose to be standing there wen i opened the door but guess wad,the person had an acccident.i really got a surprise..to learn that the person met wif an accident.i was on the verge of tears not bcuz e person wasnt there,but bcuz i was so damn worried.how i controlled those tears at the dinner table,i dnt know.but i cldnt keep it in that long.i had to excuse myself to the ladies.called him up to find out of he was ok.lucky he was.my heart really sank.wen i asked y he NEVER mentioned to me he was comin,the reply was "surprises arent meant to be said".HAHAH.my uncle also got a cake for me to celebrate my graduation.that was damn sweet.damn,if he was there.damn!!!oh well,things happen for a reason.so damn tired,we were msging till 1.30am?..lauhing like mad..PORK LEG!!!hahahah.
sunday[250905]
kids rehearsal today in church.they were gd.so proud of them.their big day nxt sunday!!hahahah.well,today is my last day to relax,full swing of studying after this.2 more months sam.2 more months!
"Wakakaka"



Monday, September 19, 2005; 10:30 PM






tmr is the end of prelims!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.hahahahah.as im typin,we r makin plans now.hahah.
friday[160905]
wen to hav macs breakfast at bedok inter wif sa,jo, n rach n den sa came over to my place.i was goin back to change n of to roxy to pamper myself.[ahahaha] n den of to taka to cut my hair.she followed me.hahah.i cut 1 inch off.i nearly cut alot.hahah..after Os...den i shall do sumtin drastic.heh.met jo. n rach after tt cuz they wen to town too.den we all wen home..except me..i wen to bathers for dinner.was gonna meet mum there.this is wad happens wen ur mum turns up at bathers before u...i receive a msg "hi..are u nearby yet?ur mum's here."hahaah...no escaping.really no escaping.hahahah.anyway.got there..randell's hair rocks!he dyed it pearl brown.hahah.bleah..he is a bum..kena bully..but he rocks at the same time.hahahah.how contradicting.heh.anyway,mandy came down later on.by then,mum n i had dinner.she was goin home cuz andy was comin from korea tt night.heh..mandy n i ganged up n bullied randell.wahahahahah.revenge!!!dad was comin to pick us at 9.45pm.but i didnt wanna leave.i didnt have trainin e next day plus i juz didnt feel like goin home yet.mum said i cld stay.hahahh.took the chance.from 9.45 till 11.20..i was juz talkin to ran throughout the whole time.i really enjoyed our conservation.hahahah...entertainin..at 11+,we wen to 7-11 to pick up sumtin for uncle brian at IP.i think i nearly died of laughter...we were making bets on the way n all.HAHAHAHAHAH.got back to bathers,grabbed our bags n we left.he sent me home.tt was nice of him.we grabbed a cab to my place n he got off wif me.hee hee.n not say he stays near me.i was home at 11.40+?hahahah.on the way home,i was saying tt i wish i had tics to catch the granprix for the motor boat cuz i really wanted to go buti wasnt willin to pay.i got home n mum says dad got tics.ran n i were msging so i automatically tot of him wen i had the tics.not everyone likes this f1 stuff.heh.so it was set...sun,he,zecki n i were going for it.i was so damn happy that i had free tics.my hp is gonna shoot up..but..hahahahah..at least im not wasting msgs.waahahah.
saturday[170905]
i woke up to my sis call at 12pm+.i was so tired.i fell asleep back at 3.30.wen for sunset mass cuz i was gonna go for the grandprix on sun.mad tired.all i wanted to do is sleep...sleep...sleep.hahahahah.
sunday[180905]
met zecki n randell 10 at city hall.zecki needed to eat.hahahah.we used $20 bk vouchers we had.safe money.hahahah.the way zecki eats.i think i nearly died.hahahahh.we were gonna catch the race at 3.30 so we walked round.walked to suntec.wen to arcade.hahahahah.zecki rocks in dancing.hahah..wen to toys 'r' us too.played wif the stuff animals.HILARIOUS!these two u put together n u get chaos.i wen red for them but i laughed till tummy ache.heh.cheeks pain also.hahahah..walk...walk...laugh...laugh...window shoppin.hahahah..mad walkin everywhere..wen to citylink n ate bread talk den we made out way to marina bay.cuz it rained in the mornin..we had to walk in mud.my whole shoe pratically sank in.hahahahah.i wasnt afraid of gettin my shoe dirty..i was scared of fallin flat on my face in the mud.hahahahah.anyway,made it to the grandstand n got a gd seat.the start of was so cool.the boats were real fast n the roaring engine...WOO HOO HOO.2nd or 3rd lap,a collison of boats occured right in front of where we were seating.n in flipped.it was cool yet scary.hahahahh.stayed for a lil longer den we left.hahahah.uncle brian was gonna meet us at carrefour cuz randell spotted a gd player for the biztro.hahahah.met him n randell said sumtin to me...HAHAHAHAHAHAH.sorry.its hilarious.den we walked over to shaw n my uncle bought me LOTR stuff..legolas...legolas...legolas.hahahahahah.=D.we were like opp bugis by then..we had thai fd for dinner.shiok!!!hahahah.hmmmmmmmm.lalalalala.dinner was fun lah.hahah.den we wen opp for dessert.i was freakin full by then.ran n i shared mango fruits platter wif ice cream.it was nice.hahahh.we were practically pushing more fd to each other.hahah.HE LOST!hahahah.my uncle was grabbin a cab home.so i got a free ride home.heh.i was out from 10am till 9.30pm.my feet were killin me.hahahahah.so i didnt think about it cuz i was wif gd company.heh.got home..this is wad mum says.."ive not seen u this happy since.....(fill in the blanks for those who REALLY knoe since wen)."..i juz smiled.heh.msg...msg...msg...
monday[190905]
i didnthav to go in to sch today cuz i didnt hav to take the paper.wen for trainin at 11am.hahah.woke up at 8.15 n gave a wake up call to......hahahah.first time i give a wake up call n the person on the other line wishes me good mornin first.hahahahah.tt was funny.both of us were speakin in out groggy mornin voices which was damn funny.shld hav recorded it.hahahahahah.okok.tmr..i dunno wad we're gonna do..hahahah.
-stretches aloud-"good morning!".............HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA



Wednesday, September 14, 2005; 10:09 PM

PRELIMS.PRELIMS.PRELIMS.PRELIMS.
BLEAH.MAX HRS OF SLEEP I GET EACH DAY IS 3 HRS IF IM LUCKY.
BUT NORMALLY,IM ONLY IN LALA LAND AT 3AM.
WAKE UP AT 5AM TO GIVE A WAKE UP CALL TO SA,5.45 TO JO. AND RACH.THEN JO. WILL CALL ME AT 6.15 TO WAKE ME UP.hahahahah.its quite funny.i look like a racoon with my dark eye rings n eye bags.and grad nite is next fri.WOW.hahah.
im all set for that day.hahah.i wonder how that day will turn out.hmmmmmmmmm.





got a phone call today n i juz froze while going home to grab books to study in sch.my heart sank.it was just a lil too much for me to take.maybe TOO much.couldnt control my emotions,one by one,tears juz streamed down my face.all that was running through my head was..."WHY!!!"i juz went silent.my tears did the talking.and trying ur best to NOT let the other person on the line hear that u r crying is not east.ESPECIALLY wen the person knows that the news which was juz told to me would affect me bcuz of my relationship with the person.i tried to concentrate studying but my mind was just too worried and concerned.feelin better now after talkin to the person...its how we confide in one another.








I couldnt trust you.Im so sorry.But whatever you have been tellin me,i juz took it with a pinch of salt.i never fully believed wad u hav been tellin me.because of my past,now,i have a problem trusting people BIG TIME.after what happened today,you've really gain my trust.plus,u trust me so much with all ur secrets.im right by ur side.



Thursday, September 08, 2005; 10:44 PM







WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.
TODAY.TODAY.TODAY.
LISA'S BDAY!!!!HAPPY 17TH BDAY MY SWEETIE!!!!!!!!
A/C IN THE MORNING THEN OFF TO TANJONG PAGAR WITH JO. AND RACH TO STUDY AT STARBUCKS FIRST.HAHAHAH.WAITED TILL 12.30 DEN WE WENT TO BUY LUNCH FOR THEM.GOT TO BATHERS ROUND 1.30.HAHAHAH.KK.TOO MUCH HAPPENED TODAY TO BLOG.ALL I CAN SAY IS....
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
JO. HAD TO LEAVE CUZ HER MUM WAS FLYING OFF.STUDIED THERE.HAHAH.WE REALLY DID STUDY.
LISA CAME LATER ROUND AT 5+.
PLAYED POOL WITH RANDALL N ZECK.LAUGHED LIKE MAD.
RANDALL SHOWED SOME ADVERTS ON HIS POCKET PC WHICH WERE HILARIOUS!!!
HAHAHA.
RACH N I GOT A SURPRISE BROWNIE CAKE WITH ICE CREAM FOR SA'S CAKE.
N IT WAS SERVED ON THE POOL TABLE.HAHAH.SO COOL RITE.HAHAHAH.
TODAY WAS GOOD..FOR ME AT LEAST.WILL IT REMAIN THIS WAY?
*FINGERS CROSSED*
THAT WAS DAMN SWEET OF YOU.THANKS!<3





Wednesday, September 07, 2005; 12:17 PM

im a VERY VERY VERY....EXTREMELY HAPPY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHAHA
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD




6th sep[tuesday]....WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
wen to see blender at work today.weeeeeeeeeeee.bought him lunch..and the rest as well.hahahahah.mum took of n went with me.mummy likes him--->1 point for him.hahahah.im high on life right now.since yest till now.make tt...yest afternoon till now.mornin i wasnt SO happy.ah...wadever.the impt part...my whole day changed cuz of one person.wad one smile from blender can do to my life.hahahahah.i was there from 1.30pm till like 7+.hahahah.how time flies wen u have fun.hahahah.mandy came down to have lunch.after lunch,played pool for like the whole day plus helped out wif the cutlery.heh.chess fever at bathers.hahahah.freak,yest was hilarious.laugh n laugh n laugh.laugh too much actually.i juz didnt wan to leave.i enjoyed every moment there.zecki is still beatin me in pool.it was hilarious to see mum n i playin.we arent THAT good but i won.hahahah.mum was improvin really fast thanks to randall,zecki n mike.basket.hahahah.eventually...i had to leave.SIGH.anyway,took the train down to pasir ris n wen mum n i were waitin for dad to pick us up,i receive a msg n I NEARLY DIED.i coudlnt breathe and my heart was pounding mad fast.i was screamin n jumping..kk...silent scream..hahahah.mum was freakin out wif me.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA
LALALALALALALALA
DEEDEEDEEDEEDEE
DUMDUMDUMDUMDUM
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
I CAN ACTUALLY SAY ITS A WISH COME TRUE.
IVE NOT EVEN DREAMT OF THAT HAPPENIN TO ME BUT........
WOO HOO HOO
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
I COULDNT STOP SMILING.
HAHAHAHAHAH
my mum said "confirn sweet dreams tonight"
AND SERIOUSLY...SE-RI-OUS-LY....
I REALLY HAD SWEET DREAMS.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.
WISHFUL THINKING.WISHFUL THINKING.
i think i do owe my self at least a lil bit of happiness in my life.
n ive not been soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freakin happy before.[or at least since last yr]
well..lets see.lets see.hahahahahahahahahah.






im goin to bathers tmr..i think.zecki makin me buy them lunch.we'll see.hah...lalalalalala.
sweetie's bday tmr!!!!!she's behind me now.hahahahah.cross fingers n toes she will like her prezzie.love her lots to bits.





WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.TMR.





Oh Happy Day...Oh Happy Day!!!!


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA



Sunday, September 04, 2005; 2:08 AM

saw him yest at work at night after training.=DDDD.hamstring killin me.but..hah..the trip down was worth it.heh.it was hilarious to see my sis's face drop wen she saw me there.she didnt see my msg wen i asked her if she was goin to bathers.hahah.she was in a middle of a meetin there wen she saw me there.her expression was priceless.heh.and all she cld say to me was "go in lah...go in.no point stayin out here wen there is someone to see inside."my gosh.i think i wen red.andy was there too.long time since ive seen him.i was juz suppose to grab sumtin from my uncle n leave.but hah...i stayed.had dinner there n all.weeeeeeeee..yest night was fun.juz sittin at the bar n laughin like there was no tmr. i wanna kill for my uncle for doin somethings.my gosh.i juz wanted to ground to swallow me up.hahahahaha.he meant well all the way but...my gosh...mad pai seh yest.while mandy was in her meetin,i was sittin in the kitchen talkin to mike.tt fella inspires me alot.he makes me think n he makes me believe that everything is possible.i love my buddy.heh.i was munching on hot fries by mike.i juz loved yest so much.i drank white wine spritzer n tt is my absolute fav drink.hahah..my sis was checkin if i was dizzy.damn funny.but i can control my drink...so its ok.her hoegarden was sweet.hahah.i juz wanna rewind time back to yest night.ive not felt that particular way for a long time.and it was nice to feel tt way again.hahahahahah.put mike,mandy,andy,brian,randall and i..and u get chaos.i laughed till i teared.




how do i prepare for a trajedy?
how do u prepare urself to face a trajedy when u know things may take a turn.
but u will never know wen.
or it may never happen.
wen u enjoy that ones company and you 2 have shared moments.
and u know the person is sufferin from an illness.
things are fine now but u have to prepare urself juz in case sumtin happens.
i didnt think about it till yest wen it was mentioned to me.
it was mentioned to me as they know i wld be torn by it.
thinkin about it now,i dnt think i can face it.
why must things like these happen to a nice person?
i dnt think i can face it.
but i have to prepare myself.
it sucks to prepare urself for sumtin so tragic.
writin about it now is sendin shivers down my spine.
pray.pray.pray.pray.pray.pray.
i will battle it with prayers.
my only weapon of defence.




neither me nor anyone could get enough of that smile of yours.=D



Thursday, September 01, 2005; 3:46 PM

i dont appreciate people poking their noses into my life.
what happened in the past has happened.
i cant rewind time.
stop making people find out about wad happened.
jus stop interfering in my life.
n whatever comes back to me.
i cant give a fkin damn anymore.
im numb.
i cant feel anymore.
cuz im immune to hurt.
i juz cant feel anymore.
stop saying tt im affected by it.
cuz im NOT.
im not even thinkin bout wadever u tell me.
u r the one who keeps bringing the topic up.
i cant give a damn while u r the one who somehow keeps insisting im affected.
it seems like u r affected by it,not me.
im warning anyone who butts into my life.
F OFF.
im dead serious.
i may reach a point where i might just go up to u and
give u one tight slap.
if i had done any wrong in the past,
i suffer the consequences.
not anyone,but me.
so pls,
im asking all of you nicely,
F OFF.
its my life.MY LIFE!!!
dont think i dunno who r the ones who are the K.P.Os
i know who are the ones buttin into my life.
im juz keepin quiet.
but wen that day comes wen i open my mouth,
...good luck to you.
i dnt even think prayers will safe u.
cuz wen i blow my top,
nothing gets in my way.
and another thing,
dont make up things bout my life wen u dnt know the truth.
cuz i promise you..those who start rumours bout my life,
i will screw your life up so badly,
that u wont know wad hit you.
i give you my word.